My inspiration

I am mad. Really. Really Really mad.

I got so mad, I had Maggi, box of grapes, yogurt, Oreo, chocolates and fishball noodles all at once.

I got so mad, I had Sharon to call me and pour my tension to her.

I got so mad, I had Tiffany to fetch me out early to talk.

Then I remember a book I read last year.

An excerpt from the book - Tuesday with Morrie, which related to imagery, was what

Morrie referred to as detachment. As he was recovering from a violent coughing spell, he began to explain to Mitch the ability to detach yourself from your emotions. He believed that experiencing life and the emotions that go along with each situation were very important. Morrie explained to Mitch that it was necessary to experience and feel your emotions fully rather than ignore them or pretend that they don't exist as so many of us do. This is more fully explained in an excerpt from pg. 105:

" Morrie's approach was exactly the opposite. Turn on the faucet. Wash yourself with the emotion. It won't hurt you. It will only help. If you let the fear inside, if you pull it on like a familiar shirt, then you can say to yourself, "All right, it's just fear, I don't have to let it control me. I see it for what it is." "Same for loneliness: you let go, let the tears flow, feel it completely-but eventually be able to say, "All right, that was my moment with loneliness. I'm not afraid of feeling lonely, but now I'm going to put that loneliness aside and know that there are other emotions in the world, and I'm going to experience them as well."

When Morrie detaches himself from his emotions, he is not simply ignoring and blocking them, but experiencing them fully as well as separating himself from them so that they will not control him. In this sense at least he can slightly escape the fear of his emotions without fully ignoring them. Morrie did not want to leave the world through a violent coughing spell, instead he wanted to understand what was happening to him, find acceptance in it, and be able to let go in a peaceful manner.

“Take any emotion - love for a woman, or grief for a loved one, or what I’m going through, fear and pain from a deadly illness. If you hold back on the emotions - if you don’t allow yourself to go all the way through them - you can never get to being attached, you’re too busy being afraid. You’re afraid of the pain, you’re afraid of the grief. You’re afraid of the vulnerability that loving entails. But by throwing yourself into these emotions, by allowing yourself to dive in, all the way, over your head even, you experience them fully and completely.You know what pain is. You know what love is. You know what grief is. And only then can you say, ‘All right. I have experienced that emotion. I recognise that emotion. Now I need to detach from that emotion for a moment.’” - Tuesdays with Morrie, pp. 103-104

So yea! I stopped being mad. I am gonna experience more emotions. I won't let fools to ruin my day. and i should probably change the colour of my blog to dull, black or something since most of my post are all emo, sad, mad, etc. =/